I finally took my own advice.
Things have felt a little off for me internally, because I haven't been spending time with my horses. There are plenty of "good" reasons (hello, being pregnant for most of the last 2 years and now raising a tiny baby, a 3+ hour round trip, oh and crazy, unpredictable winter weather), but it doesn't change the reality that they're part of what make me feel alive.
I've struggled with this, wondering if I was going to be a person who gave them up with this new stage, knowing that's common, but not wanting it to be my reality and wondering how to manage all of that.
I've felt incongruent at times, because I was not putting time with them on my calendar and making them a priority as I so often teach.
My non-baby-care time is precious and I devote most of it to Life With Passion because I love it so much.
But...I realized that negotiating time with my horses is a non-negotiable for me.
So recently, I packed up a car full of warm clothes and baby gear and took Fi over to a friend's while I went and spent a bit of time at the barn. I left the to-do list at home and made.it.happen.
And, though I didn't get to ride (I was out there alone, and I don't do that anymore), I did get to bring Graley up, groom and tack him up, and re-connect with my buddy, who's been in my life for over 11 years--longer than my husband, my dogs, and most non-blood relationships I have.
It wasn't perfect but...yep, you guessed it, done is better than perfect. And since the hardest part is getting started, now that's done, and I know what's required, and I have another date on the calendar already for next month.
Eric Liddell, the runner on whom the movie Chariots of Fire was based, said, "When I run, I feel God's pleasure." Well, when I ride, I feel God's pleasure.
However it looks going forward, I'm grateful for the opportunity to be moving back toward it.
What's one thing you've been missing in your life that you're ready to get back?
Email me and let me know!
Lots of Love,